Ecstatic Scrolls

Being at the point of ten years from discovering my ability to draw automatically, on reflection of that time I find a desire to return to the very direct way of making my art as it was in the early days. At the time there was as much of the fervor to understand the process flowing through me as there was to make interesting images. In fact the latter was more challenging as I was at the mercy of the spontaneous movement to make images. I had to work within the process to remain authentic and to not circumnavigate a discovery of deeper possibilities. 

In that end though I have worked much on producing interesting images, trying and fabricating different different types of marking tools, using various substances as my paint and various supports to paint upon. More recently I began to include imagery in my work as the time was appropriate in my evolution to do so while still holding to an automatic ecstatic approach when applying paint. All this led to composition based on what I thought abut the experience of ecstatic movement and ecstatic perception.  Although I have many works that are more of a color composition, the works that incorporate a concept or theme are the more appealing to me. And I see this is an attempt to communicate something, or even offer an experience.

However my own experience is what is the most provocative. I do not know how to communicate this or offer it up, although I seem to be trying to do so in these compositions. I can truly change my surroundings and my sense of self by a pointed surrender of my perception. I have some talent as an ecstatic. And in a most forward thinking way I assert my art to exist in this experiential enhancement to my perception - I paint the entirety of my experience. I think it possible my images offer this, to others as it does for me, but I have been doing it for ten years. The effort is individual, even if the discovery may be universal.

So I think back to that time and am compelled to return to a more direct approach, and to a more direct inquiry. To that end I am working on scrolls, what I have thought of long ago but am doing now. Basically I paint with brush and ink one section at  time. I now have finished two scrolls, each about one hundred feet of a continuous and spontaneous drawing. And although there are conceptual aspects to this work and the product it is, I take it as an effort to refine my process. That is to reduce it to most essential, eschewing other artistic distractions, that I may better focus on looking into what I have been in training see. If the seeing is the essence of the art, then this is really all I need.

Night Visions In Phosphene Hues

I have recently completed five works in a series which I call Night Visions In Phosphene Hues. What these works are is an attempt to incorporate three different aspects of subjectivity into a work of art, thereby having it be a model of a certain subjective experiences. I will explain.

I have a vivid visual imagination. Images are continually being offered to me through my intuition. This is most obvious when I am at rest or in bed. I call these night visions. I see all sorts of images passing through my mind's eye, art works, graphic images, strange scenes and settings and abstract markings and symbols. It is a skill I have worked on. Sometimes I keep track of the images I see, but mostly I just forget them. There is too much to catalog and not much proof of the use to do so. 

However, from the collection of images I have made I picked five which seem to have the most relation to a spiritual theme, as I interpret them. These I designed in outline which I reproduced in twine to be used as a rubbing as is one of my procedures in composition. Then I selected colors based on phosphenes in a specific degree of light. Phosphenes are the color fields you see when you close you eyes. In different light there are different groups of colors, so I made five different color palettes. 

These two, intuitive images and phosphate colors, are two aspects of subjective experience. By subjective I mean truly from one's point of experience. These experiences cannot be shared, reproduced or imitated. Maybe no experiences can be, but these obviously cannot be included with those we think can, whether erroneously or not. I see this as an important distinction to make.

There is also something I have intuitively realized in the relation of these two aspects of subjectivity, that phosphenes and intuitional mental images enhance and foster each other, (although I believe for most of us it is very difficult to focus on both simultaneously, not without a bit of practice.) What I mean is the swirl of color in one's eyes is a stimulus for free association and conversely an intuitive image (or dream image) can form back into a color shadow of the phosphene. I have certainly experienced the latter, so I have some confirmation in my own observations. I have recently been reading about various stages of imagery in regards to lucid dreaming that pass through phosphene to full formed dreaming (hypnogogic imagery) and levels of visions through shapes and patterns to entire scenes (entopic imagery and form constants), so I am happy to know my intuitive insight has some other confirmation as well.  

The third aspect of subjectivity in the work is the ecstatic manner in which the color fields are applied. Now a color field from my ecstatic application (with the appropriate tool) very much has the grainy and entropic flow of the phosphene. Whether this relation is actual or just representative I cannot say, although it may have a basis in brownian motion or some other such physical structure. Regardless, it is a fair representation of the view of a phosphene color field. Beyond this there is the possibility that the marks themselves as a document of the ecstatic experience contain a signature of the experience that can be passed to the viewer. This I cannot know for sure, but certainly many of my works show an incredible level of depth or movement for almost all viewers, and a major stimulus for me towards the ecstatic experience, though it is my body of work.

The final works show an intuitive image emerging out of a color field generated by an ecstatic approach that is representative of the phosphene in form and color. It is a model of these subjective processes, resulting from the processes themselves, incorporating themes of spiritual inquiry. Essentially it is pointing to what is truly unique in an individual - a subjectivity that cannot shared, reproduced or imitated, since it is truly unique. My hope is that this work will bring this aspect of being into greater focus and make it less likely to be overlooked by concerns of an objectivity that usually gets the majority of our attention.