A few years back something happened that changed the direction of my life, the discovery of a completely automatic way of drawing. For years I have been trying to get my head around this thing and explore the best way to engage in it as honestly and authentically as possible. This has yielded more questions than answers and so I have been spinning a matrix of inquiry.
Thinking is essential for the artistic process. If an artist explains his thoughts around a work he is often not explaining the work but the intellectual process which he had while creating it. These ideas may not appear to have much relevance to the final work but they are always essential to the creation.
When I first began to draw in the way I do I was shocked to find that I had many assumptions about myself and my world that were no longer believable. My perception opened to things in myself which I had no way of knowing before. The shift was that radical, it fractured me, everything was called into question. Over the years though I have made several new connections as I have begun to perceive, reflect, and discover more deeply.
These ideas and thoughts are what I would like to share in this online journal. But what I want to remember the most is the moment in which I realized that my deeply held thoughts were so obviously inaccurate. This for me means remembering that any new construct remains in question. And if I now see things so differently to remember the absurdity of how I saw them before, believing them with no way of perceiving an alternative. This is not something I could have helped, nor can anyone else. The revolution may again befall me or anyone else, pushing the absurdity of our beliefs into our eyes. Therefore, in honor of this human predicament, I do not speak of truth, but ideas I would like to share.
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