Why Call It Kundalini?

I do know that my experiences correlate to documentation of Kundalini awakenings, but that to me is neither here nor there. I had these experiences for a few years before I read accounts similar to what I was experiencing. And although inquiry into teachings and documentation about the Kundalini often proved interesting and enlightening the label of Kundalini best served only as a title to a collection of such material, not most of it beneficial or accurate to my found direction. What I had discovered that was of the highest profundity to me was a very new and vastly more intimate view of my own subjectivity. In no way does the idea of Kundalini affect this perception. It is my own relationship to my inner workings and to my unfolding ecstatic experiences in which the import lay. This is where I learn the most.

Unfortunately Kundalini as a subject is a bit volatile as the occurrence of it is highly coveted. There is a whole culture of reverence, mystery and verification surrounding it. I had already known of the Kundalini through Kundalini Yoga as taught in the US by Yogi Bhagan, but none of the explanations about Kundalini in those teachings described what I was experiencing. Mostly they were generalities in very mythological terms about the types of attainment available through the Kundalini. What I was experiencing was very specific and direct, so the reference never came to mind.

In researching Kundalini on the internet I often find a certain effort towards authority  in the Kundalini experience through indicating benchmarks of growth and denouncing other's claims of authenticity or level of attainment. This covetousness would be a major distraction to me and my growth. I do not care to compare experiences for another's authentication as I have nothing to prove. As stated the label of Kundalini is superfluous to my experience and growth, I have no reason to claim or defend it.

The nature of my experiences are completely unique from all other experiences of my life. The onset of them was an entry into a completely novel perception, one which continues to astound me. There is no way for me to really describe them. And the problem of then saying that they are of the Kundalini is that the concept of the Kundalini is known by many. There are many books written about this and its history in human practice. However these books cannot penetrate into this perception or give an experience as I have, (at least I assume they cannot.) In this respect the five thousand year tradition of the Kundalini is only five thousand years of hearsay about something which cannot well be described. 

For me it has been a great endeavor to communicate my experiences through my words and my art in an accurate a way as possible, a very complex challenge. And I hesitate to identify what is ineffable by something that many people feel they can understand or even know through the great length of literature that has and still is being generated about the subject. Whatever Kundalini is most probably do not understand it. However many people really want it. The want for something one does not understand cannot be the want of that thing but of something it represents to them. I in no way want to associate or address what I experience to this want in others. If I could I would like to give the discovery of an experience of the great complexity and vastness of one's own subjective authority. Speaking of the Kundalini seems to me a diversion from that end.